stephxcanie

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 07:21:05 GMT

life is too confusing.
and i want to get away
but nowhere sounds good
so im just going to stay put for awhile,
until something strikes my fancy.
i hate this feeling
and i want it to go away

Mon, 19 May 2008 22:58:48 GMT

someone keeps leaving me really cryptic messages.
and i just wish i knew who it was.

Mon, 19 May 2008 06:27:56 GMT

ive had my closure
and im ready fof a new begining.
my life is going in the direction that i want
and ive never been so certain, ever.
this is my chance to start over
my chance to set things straight.

Sun, 18 May 2008 08:09:49 GMT

today; could not have gone better.
enough said

Sat, 17 May 2008 06:11:51 GMT

these past few days have been weird.
what am i getting myself into?
i can see whats going on
and its going on right under my nose.
and im not doing anything about it
except for just allowing it to happen
im not so sure that it's bad
but there are no signs saying that it's good.
life is unpredictable..
but sometimes i just want to know
know the answers to all these questions..
sometimes i want reliability.

Wed, 14 May 2008 05:49:03 GMT

okay;
so now im just irritated
and slightly pissed off
on the plus side
ive been editing pictures

Tue, 13 May 2008 04:55:35 GMT

the ball was in your court;
and you didnt do anything with it
and now you're angry with me?!
because i didnt put my life on hold
and you say you dont give a fuck..
nice. real nice
im done playing games.
i wish it was that easy for me:
just walk away and pretend i have no feelings
but it isnt that easy
im walking away
but there's not pretending here
your problem is that you're just mad
to be mad.
you dont know what happened
or what didnt happen.
and i dont think that matters to you.

Sat, 10 May 2008 17:20:45 GMT

i was just being honest
guess i shouldnt have said anything

gawd

Thu, 08 May 2008 16:57:05 GMT

why do things have to be so complicated?!

going to Bremerton today;
taking the pooch back to my moms
i wish i could keep him

Sun, 04 May 2008 17:04:46 GMT

I can't commit to anything.
And I really need to work on that

oh bother

Sat, 03 May 2008 09:18:32 GMT

things are confusing
and only getting worse

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 22:32:31 GMT

all work
and no play.
is making me
extremely boring.

Wed, 06 Feb 2008 10:43:54 GMT

im in love.
with my roomates.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 22:58:59 GMT

im thinking that i need to change my lifestyle. its almost like ive become weak and lost a sense of who i am. but the more i think about it. i dont really know who i am. i dont know where i want to go. or what matters most to me. i used to think that family was my number one priority.. but its become quite clear that the words: family, mom, love, forever; mean absolutely nothing to some people. i lost two of the most important people in my life, and my whole world has been turned upside down. i want to believe in love. and happily ever afters. but i havent found anyone that can show me that fairy tale like realities exist.

Thu, 29 Nov 2007 06:52:35 GMT

yesterday as i was driving home from school i witnessed the most surreal sequence of events; an average yellow school bus was flashing its red lights and eager children were emerging from the bus. a small boy, not older than eight, saw his grandfather. from across the street i could see his whole face light up. and as he flung himself into his grandfathers arms i felt a sense of love radiate from this child.

i wish i could have bottled this love up and saved it. maybe this is the answer to world peace? let children lead the world. they have so much positive energy and life within their hearts. i wish i could go back to that innocence. this world is such a fucked up place.